restarting my blog...

It is 10:45 in the morning. I was unusually late for office. yes..! I meant unusually.. I was surprised with my self on the way I had started reaching places on time.. Which I never did ever. I got up quite late today. But from two days I slept with no plans of getting up. Last few days have been very dramatic in terms of strange events taking place one after the other which left my mind wandering, even in the sleep. The dreams were also filled with some strange characters which were mixture of various characters who had no connections within them, very schizophrenic characters in some sense… but I didn’t remember much. I enjoyed not remembering them.
It has almost been three months since I gave thesis. There were so many things in my mind, few resolved and many unresolved. I preferred writing things down to resolve them. Though language flattened and generalized lots of things, the clarity arising out of it was much soothing then its violence. I panicked when I was not clear. Clarity gave so much comfort, though it appropriated things. That’s how I thought of starting my blog again. I did write some kind of a diary at home but it was quite a fluid space I wrote the way wanted, unarticulated, unstructured and extremely personal. I didn’t have any problem with that but for a while I wanted some other kind of space where I would articulate and structure things. And I had decided I would write very casually unlike before where I thought for days and days bout what to write and turned up writing nothing. Now I hope I write regularly.